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There’s been times in my life where I would just sit back and reflect on what was and think of things that may come… remembering the people I’ve met through the years, the friends that I made and all the other things that affected the person I am today… whether positive or negatively. Sometimes I feel that we go through life with our eyes closed and never realise that today is what we have… let’s live in the NOW and embrace what we have TODAY.

The bulk of what follows were written in a “darker” period of my life, between 1998 and 2000.

immortal vitality.

the morning comes » the day goes by » hours, minutes » and months all fly » I think of you » too much maybe » if only you knew » what I can see » visions of you » running through my mind » a fellow, a friend » or just another blind » to you I’ll be » as you will see » an Immortal vitality » I question myself » again and again » why do I think » so much about a friend » is it something big » or could it be small » if only I knew » not to answer the call » to you I’ll be » as you will see » an Immortal vitality.

me + you.

What can I do » when these fights are not with you » when your mind starts to wander » I see your frown, the tears… then hear the thunder » I can’t reason with your thoughts » magnified by negativity » you question life, love then reality » I can’t convince you how I feel » or make you trust that it’s real » What I know is that I’m here for you » and that’s how we’ll make it through » just me… holding you.

paranoid.

All my relationships » did not last that long » I’m always the one » saying something wrong » cause I’m paranoid » simply Paranoid » questions is turning » inside my head » sometimes I think » I’m better off dead » thinking off things » confuses me even more » I’m trapped in suspicion » to scared to explore » I’m paranoid » just paranoid » there is this need » without it I cant live » it is something pure » only you can give » stuck in a mind warp » with nothing to say » is this the way » you want things to stay » PARANOID !!!!

someone.

I’m not fine in these times » it’s hard to be strong » every turn I take » like a thousand moves go wrong » the walls are tumbling in » suddenly I awake » still lost and even more afraid » I need someone » someone to talk to » someone who feels the same » anyone who can share my pain » I’m giving up » there is no one who care » alone in this world » dealing with my despair » Does it really matter? » this something everyone goes through » the pain of loosing » a good friend like you.

strangers.

I felt so lonely I had nothing to do » An empty heart with no one but you » You smiled at me with eyes so bright » As if I was embraced by the warmest light» What is wrong with us? » Did I know you and do you know me » Or are we both strangers, strangers that won’t see. » We shared a love both strange and true » I still remember my involvement with you » But know I know all that has gone » You dont exist, the love is done. » You’re just a stranger, a stranger to me » I’ve opened my eyes and now I can see.

without you.

sitting there all alone » looking at the telephone » wishing there was someone » anyone to talk to » thinking back on your life so far » wondering if there was moments » moments you were the star » desperately seeking something to do » you start to imagine » how the world would revolve » without you, without you » oh yeah revolve without you » it’s impossible to revolve » without you.

why you.

I saw a friend in you » did you see one in me too? » friendship was a real blast » but it didn’t last » hoping you’re happy » ’cause I’m depressed and sad » being in this lifetime » is making me mad » you’re forgetting us » you’re heart is full of dust » you’re seeing someone else » and now I’m asking myself » why you, why you » this is a nightmare coming true » seeing you two together » is like opening my eyes » you’re always under the weather » and believing all his lies » he’s making you unhappy » can’t you see that too? » I tried and tried » but I couldn’t get through to you » you’re forgetting us » you’re heart is full of dust » you’re seeing someone else » and now I’m asking myself » why you, why you » there’s nothing I can do » yeah nothing, nothing » oh, nothing anyone can do.

poems

frost.

I’m like an Immortal wrapped in a tedious life inflicting sorrow sacrificing love for evil.

identity.

The unsatisfying need to be someone I’m not escapes this body, consumed by myself I urge for retail therapy.

imitation.

Life is the mirror standing free reflecting things as they appeared to be - not reaching the darkness.

intoxicated negativity.

From within myself there’s a raging power - notice that the fire of anger contained in this body is spreading towards those around me.

mistaken quality.

The growing strength of friendship deceives me, for what I would like to be, I can’t be. I am myself and not another entity - this soul, this life, this being… an interwoven attack of consciousness.

mutually opposed.

Opposites collide in this mudslide of emotions, to discover the unspoken truth between light and it’s darkness.

heart.

Spiritual guidance to an intense emotional connection burns the core of my soul divided by an ocean your heart makes the call.

repetitive.

Mundane suppressive nature binding that which is pure, invoking elusive emotions with a repetitive thought.

seek.

A single journey lead to the mirrored truth for a better me, all I discovered was the only person I could not be.

tired.

Drunken feelings forged by pain, makes me silent - I have no voice, I can not be woken.

void.

I have not yet seen the light that’s love, overcasted by shadows the gloom of life. Too close for freedom but still out of reach - pure sincerity.